LE's memoir

update

Sat, 24 Nov 2007 04:17:33 GMT

For the hell of it. I work at Joann's Fabrics, and still go to college. Huge stage of transition, things (ie my future) is kinda er..up in the air right now. Yeah. Not feeling particularly talkative, but lots going on in my brain. Been writing (for money) to see go here http://www.helium.com/user/edit_show/330874 yep.

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 00:35:52 GMT

My best friend's mother just IM'd me. A girl I knew in highschool died today. She was hit from behind by a drunk driver. She graduated in the grade ahead of me. I wasn't friends with her really, but I knew her. Everyone in my school knew each other, there was only 3,000 people in the town. She was in choir, and only 21 years old. I keep thinking I shouldn't be so upset, I barely spoke to her. I guess I'm just tired. I'm sick of people dying. I'm tired of losing people, tired of watching people hurt. Sick of hurting.

hah

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 20:06:49 GMT

Wouldn't you just know it? Along with the vicious bunnies, humanity also struck sometime last night.

This morning we went out to the car to go to work, only to find the trunk was wide open and the driver's side window all smashed in. Yep. They broke into the car...again. That brings the grand total up to four! After break in there hasn't been anything even in the car worthwhile, nothing but a stuffed garfield. The face plate is off the stereo so they can't get at that.. from the way the crime scene looks, all they wanted was the trunk. They smashed the window, popped the trunk. Everything else in the front was complete, my door was locked and untouched. Once in the hatch-back's trunk, they reached up to grab the change in the center console. SO what did these people get from the car after all their efforts?

- 3-5$ in change
- The emergency car kit
- Two twelve packs of wal-mart brand soda meant for D&D night

they left the brand new car parts sitting in the back, and never bothered to even go through the glove box.

~ Getting sick of idiots always breaking into the car

My nightly journey

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 06:43:59 GMT

Tonight as I journeyed through the darkness back to my home I had a thought. One of those deep thoughts that made you really stop and think. ((Except that I was on a bicycle in the dark, and stopping too quickly to think could have been hazardous to my health. But regardless,))

Before me were two paths in to the darkness that each lead around the park. One was the sidewalk, closer to the road, and one was the bike path which cut close along the edge of the wilderness. Both paths were nearly pitch black, the streetlights too dull to light my way. My only real light came from the flashlight I had strapped to my bike with twine. What was this grand thought you may ask? As I pondered which path to take, I thought to myself:

Which do I fear more, humanity, or the monsters?

(If you didn't understand that, the monsters being any mystical badies that may be hiding in the woods, humanity, human badies on the street)

Surprisingly, I arrived at the answer suddenly. What was this answer, what do I fear the most in the night?

Bunnies.

Not 10 seconds after I thought that thought provoking question, a bunny exploded through the bushes, creating a great deal of noise. (perfect timing, just like a spook in a halloween haunted house)

I'm afraid of bunnies in the night.

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 02:09:34 GMT

40 hour work weeks at the computer hurt my wrists.

Starting over

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 07:09:17 GMT

I have decided I am sick of being boring. I go to work, type meaningless names and numbers into a computer for eight hours, come home pay bills and clean the house. You might say, "Thats what being an adult is all about," but I refuse to belive thats true. An important part of me has slipped away, and its not the fault of age, or time or responsibilities, its my own. Yes, I have grown up, yes, I have bills, but thats no exuce for me to lose who I am. When I was younger my greatest fear, the thing that scared me more than anything, was that I'd lose my imagination, and I almost let it slip away unnoticed.

I've always felt that there was someting more to me, something deep within my soul that was, well almost not human. A creature of the trees and of the earth, ancient and beautiful, immortal. Laughing into the wind, laughing as she watches the lives of men flutter past as if a dream.

A dryad or fae, perhaps. Now granted, I don't actually think I'm immortal, please don't get me wrong, this is simply the way I visualize this side of me. This is my side of fantasy and magic, the wild, untamable part of me that belongs to the earth. She is my muse.

(This is what happens when you grow up in the northwoods of wisonsin on fantasy novels and movies like "Robinhood men in tights" and the princess Bride. My first imaginery friend...was Robin Hood)

There was a time when I wrote, read, sang, sculpted, acted in plays... I need more art in my life again. I'm sick of feeling uninspired, just running in the rat race. That will not be the legacy I leave behind.

And so, thanks to a good jolt of...er..unreality and a nice new book series to re-light some old flames, I shall begin the task of revitalizing my life.

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 01:10:47 GMT

So..yeah. What to talk about? Still a little home sick. Always home sick. It doesn't matter what I do, that will always be there, but I bet if I moved back home I'd miss it here. *sigh* Can't I just own a private jet and fly back and forth? Still with boyfriend. It will be five years soon. We fight like an old married couple :-P What would I do without him? (I don't know, were always together, I'm going nuts!) haha. We're still happy though. I'm about to start a tough string of classes. Having a career takes too much work :-P I have to take 4 chemistry classes and two physics classes, and thats just to transfer *cries* I'll get though it though. I prefer being in school to being stuck at a computer doing data processing for 8 hours.
In other news, I'm bored!!!!!! Need to get out more. If I'm lucky I'll have saved up enough to go to europe next year. It'll be my first time over seas. :) very excited. Not much else for now.

Wow

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 01:24:01 GMT

I still have this thing? Heh.
So yeah. Hi all. I dunno if anyone still reads this thing, I doubt it. So yeah. Summer in SoCal. Hot. Ugh. Really not much to say, just updating for fun.

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 06:22:51 GMT

Well, eventually I will get to adding an entry about my trip. Just like I'll eventually get around to finishing the design of my LJ, and a number of other things.

All in all things are going well. I had an interview today at Petsmart, and am hoping for interview number two. Other than that its been the usual. Sleeping, eating, working, being an online geek, the usual. I'll be starting school in the fall. YAY ME! Very exceited about that.

So yep, so far all is well.

Fri, 27 May 2005 03:21:53 GMT

Nope, still not good at remembering to write in journals. HHrm
Well soon is my vacation to wisconsin. It is a much needed vacation from work. Yep. Work is swiftly driving me crazy. Will be looking into new-more wildlife related jobs very soon

My days are already filling up rather quickly. Not sure if I'll have any "relaxing" days in my vacation either. But hey, at least I won't be working.

It'll be fun to hang out with my friends for a time and prtend I'm not working. Heh. Good old highschool. Don't underestimate living at home with your parents and not havin to have a job. :-P

cant think of much else to say
Having party at our apartment on memorial day. That shall be fun.

BOOM BOOM BOOM!!!

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 20:19:44 GMT

Wheeeeee subwoofers and base control!!!
hehehe my geek needs are met for this birthday.

I had been using broken headphones with my brand new computer. Now I have Good speakers with base and a subwoofers AND they light up blue!!!
Makes big booming noise! *giggles geekishly* (my comp is basically my cd player)

Wheee.

In other, less blue-glowy news. From now on, April 21st will also be the birthday of my neice, as today my sister induced labor. Unfortunatley, nobody left anykind of number where I could reach them. My family is brilliant sometimes. Both sister and father left messages, but no phone or room number, and not even a hospital name. *sigh*

*sigh*
happy Beth

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 17:27:25 GMT

So tired. Stupid Target.
How mean is it to give someone all night shifts then suddenly switch them to days? Plus I was up late last night helping Chris study for Bio. He's currently 2nd overall out of all the classes :)
(mostly cause I help him study :-P (I love bio))

So yes. Tired. Very tired

~longing for a bed, and not a pile of Target clothes
Beth

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 01:51:21 GMT

Mostly Innocent
You are 72% pure

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 39% on purity

Link: The 100 Point Sexual Purity Test written by ocicat on OkCupid Online Dating

SO..

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 07:10:23 GMT

Wanna have a crappy day competition?

Lets talk about irony.

Today I go to work. I stop a guy from stealing 6 dvds or so. yay. I stopped theft from my company.

Lunch rolls around. I'm walking home (one block away only) talking to my boyfriend on the phone. The phone dies. I get a nice load of pepper spray to my face, and guys demanding everything I have. My phone is now dead and I am blind, in pain and have no purse.

I save Target from theft. Half an hour later, I get robbed.
Let me just tell you. Pepper spray is very effective. Sadly, its not always used for defense.

The guys fled, and thankfully a neighbor witnessed the whole thing, called the police and helped me (and went and got chris). What proceeded was somewhat like chineese water torture, but beneficial. I got to stand under a shower running water through my eyes for 10-15 minutes while the cops asked me what happened. Luckily besides the visious burning pain, I was not hurt. Typical thug, didn't want a murder warrant, just my money. (I only had a dollar and 29 cents anyway.)

Also thankfully, they caught the guys almost immediatly. (As in 20 mins or so.) So I got my purse back (including my 1.29) and they got arrested. May I saw, once again for the record. OW. They also stole my jelly beans :(

Also, strangely. It just so happens that the first cop on the scene was the first cop on the scene when chris's car was robbed (but he got everything back.)

Apparently they had a pellet gun in their possesion when they found them.

Fun Fact: Pepper Spray easily induces panic attacks. Thankfully I still had the sense of reason to give them what I had and know what was going on. I have an oddreflex built up from my childhood where I don't break down and cry till the danger has passed and everything is settled.

It happened when I was in the car crash too. Everyone else was screaming and crying, I was deadly calm till I was safely in the house. Not that I wasn't freaking out. The original panic attack was not fun for the 911 operator I'm sure, but I got through the cop part fairly calmly. THEN in the semi-privacy of my own home I did the final freak-out.
But, I am still here to tell the tale.

So yeah. Glad I'm still around. I feel like I'm on fire. Thus concludes another day. Folk at Target will have much to talk about.

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 21:01:42 GMT

What presicely is the point of my job? I make all the clothes look nice again, put them in order, put everything back on the shelf ans straighten..for what? So tommorow more people can come in and mess with my stuff so I have to start all over again. Talk about unproductive. Or Productively doing an unproductive task.

Anyway

Thought I shouls update. Don't really have much to say. I have a test in a few days, and I'm trying in vain to gain some of my flexibility back before my first dance class. (still quite far away, but) And so far, thats pretty much it.

As long as there are no more car break-ins to report, I'm happy.

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 08:09:37 GMT

OK NOW for the full update.

Well, the real V-day pretty much sucked. I worked all day at Target....MAN you should have seen how many guys were rushing in an hour before close, going to the jewlery boat to get jewlery for their significant others. Losers.
Other than work, Chris got his car broken into. They stole his stereo, and his sun glasses. It also so happened his favorite cd player was in the CD player at the time.

SO. Our Valentines day was postponed. Chris and I drove to San Diego and spent the night and the following day there. It was very nice.

The first night-since we arrived at six, was just for kicking back. We chilled at the hotel, which we found out was hosting a bunch of hockey players for a big tournament. (We were in the pool with the team from Alaska, which was how we found out)

The next day (today as it were) we went to Balboa park, which contains the San Diego Zoo and many many museums. Due to winter hours we sadly did not go to the Zoo. A large dissapoint for me, but the zoo is huge and needs a full day which the winter hours do not provide. We did go to the museum of Natural History, however, and among many things, saw a exhibit on the history of chocolate, which, naturally ended in a chocolate store. (which was, of course, over priced.)And I was,of course, by this time drooling and craving large large amounts of chocolatey goodness.

We then proceeded to go to the gaslamp disctrict for shopping and dinner. (We ate at the Hard Rock Cafe.) We wne to Hot Topic, which was having a ginormous clearance sale. I got a set of stationary, a necklace and a small bath set for $3.73, which, for any of you who shop at H.T may know, aint bad at all. We also, after seeing all that chocolate stoped, in at Ghiridelli's (and bought chocolate.) HArd Rock was very amusing and fun. Food was great. Souvenirs were over priced, and not so great. (was hoping for a cool shot glass-was dissapointed) All in all it was a good trip.

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 22:36:35 GMT

Its amazing where boredom will lead you.

This year, I worked, on Valentines day. Big surprise. This year, was mine and Chris' first V-Day in the same state. SO. We decided to postpone and go on a trip to San Diego this thursday and friday. He's late. Got bored. Looked up weather in San Diego/ Got bored. Started randomly looking up stuff on google. Looked up me and ALAS my live journal..heh..oh yeah..

Like I said...terrible journal keeper, even worse penpal. Thank god for instant messanger. Will come back with tripdetails later.

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 01:53:05 GMT

As I may or may not have previously mentioned. I am completely and utterly terrible at remembering to make entries.

Anyway.... christmas was good. Chris Built me a new computer! YAYY..... more later very busy

Voting

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 18:48:36 GMT

And so my day begins going over all the propositions so I can be a good, informed voter. Just because you're young doesn't mean you shouldn't have any say, its your future! Be informed and vote! Wheeee. Personally, I've been looking forward to the 2004 presidential election for years. C'mon a great year for me. I turned 18, I graduated, the summer olympics were here, AND I get to vote!! But anyway,thats my voting spiel for today.

And so life goes on. Went to two parties for halloween, one Courtneys (rhizdii's sister) and the other a small movie watching party at our own place. We went a little nuts decoration wise, but hey thats what you get when you have three people who love decorating for halloween living under one roof. Watched movies, (elvira and evil dead 2) gave little kids their sugar fixes, watched some weird ass videogame a friend bought and went to bed. Oh yes, this year for halloween I was a dominatrix faerie with a larger bull whip. Hrmm which evidently turned out more useful than I thought. Certain people when intoxicated... ((not me, I was good and drank no alcohol, it was others who decided they wanted beating)) BUT ANYWAY...was an interesting Halloween, and I will be sad to see all the decorations go.

Course, there was the dry ice incident...but..you can read that in rhizdii's journal. Lets just say, I was quite pisssed and showed just a tad of my inner bitch...

Other than that, life goes on as normal. I work. A lot. And then some more....And then I lounge around the internet. And thats basically been me lately...

Anyway, I have some specific things to do today, involving html, so I shall sign off for now

roses

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 21:25:22 GMT

*happy sigh* I got roses today! Today being my two year anniversary with my boyfriend Chris. :)

So happy... I love him so much :-)

He snuck them in when I was sleeping this morning :-D

Got a big day ahead of us :)

arrival etc

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 20:47:04 GMT

Welp....I am finally back. Talk about a trip. UGH. First we got pulled over because we have a headlight out. BUT that wasn't enough. We were headed out of the Chicago area, and they were concerened about weapon runners, so me and my boyfriend had to get out of the van and get patted down (well I escaped the patting) and our van searched. Let us go, nothing happened. But honestly? How suspicious is a cute girl (me) holding a cat, another girl, a military guy and a guy in a hawiianm shirt? Bah. You would think real weapon runners would have, ya know, cars that have both headlights so they wouldn't get pulled over.

So we stopped at a rest station over night. me and Chris and James crashed outside. Morning sun woke us up with a friendly "good morning" roasting. All in all a good night though, I rather enjoyed sleeping outside under the stars.

The next day we continued on. The radiator apparently has a leak in it, and its losing quite a bit of water, so occasionally we have to stop to let it cool down and refill it. We're in Oklahoma when the van starts over heating again, so we have to pull over. There's a leak in one of the caps. Joy. We let it cool, add more water, get on our way. We're about 90 miles from Oklahoma city at this point, maybe more, and evening is approaching. We pull away from this gas station in the middle of nowhere, get about five miles down the road when we hear a loud noise, and Courtney starts to lose control of the van. we pull over to inspect what we already know occured....a flat tire, which had shredded itself.

So after about an hour, we finally manage to get on the spare and roll slowly to Oklahoma city, but we now are too late at night to find an open tire place. So we have to get a hotel room for the night. Major delay of journey one.

When we finally get going again, the NEXT day, the radiator starts to get worse. By the time we get to Arizona, we have to stop every 50 miles or so and we're losing gallons of water. We hardly made it to the gas station, because we ran out of water to put IN the radiator. Thankfully a kind random stranger at the gas station helps us make a quick fix, and the van eventually gets us n our way again, so we don't have to stop every 50 miles. Man was I scared though when the helper needed a knife to cut the hose with, and I had to hand him my large, very sharp hunting knife I got for a grad present. YAY, Except once again, we won't be able to drive much more that night, so we have to stop at another hotel. *sigh*

So we finally got back the next day, pretty late at night.

The rest of my days have been spent becoming a resident, getting an ID and a bank acount and what not, we're already prolly moving into an apartment within the nect 2-3 weeks. Been, looking like crazy for a job of course. Yeah..

I'm going completely insane. Have been driving my boyfriend up the wall..I'm even annoying myself. Blarg.. waayyy too much going on and not anough time to relax. Sheesh.

For a much more detailed account see my borfriends LJ

Old friends...new enlightenment.

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 07:35:24 GMT

My graduation speaker said that true friends are rare and precious like diamonds. You have friends fo a reason, a season, or a lifetime, and most are for a reason or season.

Today I got a call, my friend from elementary school came down to hang with me (for a week) and go to my graduation party. I haven't seen her for many years. Its amazing how things change. Do you remember hanging out with your 6th grade buddies swearing you'd be friends forever? I do. Remember people telling you your friends over time would change?? And not beleiving them? Do you remember finally growing up, and realizing you and that old 6th grade friend have drifted worlds apart?

That was my today. Kari, as most my other friends from wausaukee, has grown up much differently than I. When moving to Kiel I drifted, then finally settled among, well, the geeks, the theater and musical students, the forensics kids, those kinds of people. Kari, on the other hand, fell into the 'partier, "I think I'm a rebel" group' Not to say I don't like a good party, but totally different ways of life and friends. But I'm left thinking. Our lives have become so different, what do we have to build a new relationship on? We only have our pasts in common now. I've become quite content with my new life, and with my non-partier friends. Will she get along with my friends? Will she be bored off her ass here? probably. She seems much more likely to get along with my sisters now then me. Where as my sisters were once geekier, they are now more partiers.

Its just left me with a lot to ponder. Heh..wait till she meets my friends tomorrow and wednesday, she'll b like "OMG..Beth is a prep! AHHHH" heh heh..
not a 'prep' per say, not a partier.

In other news, chris is on his way to get me. He left today. YAY. man I gotta get working on packing my shit. anyway. My stomach is un happy with me and I need sleep, so for now I leave you all.

Goodnight.

As an edit

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 05:21:08 GMT

I may actually be bringing my cat now..lol...
Its a strange world

I made it!

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 05:03:37 GMT

So yay! I got my diploma. oooo shiny diploma. Yeah. Feeling quite happy now. Quite accomplished. On the other hand I'm having new feline dificulties added to my journey.

*sigh* my cat has to go. My parents are moving to a new place whioch only allows 2 cats, and the only options for rusty are me, my sisters...(scary....such as constant 2 year old mauling) and an animal shelter.

*Sigh* blarg. Damned complications.

Anyway..the ceremony was good. Speeches good. Was 86 degrees and we were in these heavy-ish long sleeved robes....this was not good.
All in all, good!

Went to peter's after..had strange foods..ermm swam....got told (by Peter Sr.) to 'give your uncle a hug' played ddr.. came home....friend drove off with my cap an gown in her car
:-P

Its been a tiring day

moving on

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 07:35:13 GMT

quite frankly...I'm scared. When I look at that cap and gown sitting so still over there...I get frightend. I have about 24 hours exactly till graduation. It bugs me...I hate the feeling of fear over something so seemingly small in the grand scheme...I like to think I'm strong.

Anyway, It would be no big deal, but my graduation brings a bit more change then most of my friends. They will all still be together. Of course, there's also the swelling feeling of accomplishment. My father is going to cry. I know he's very proud of me... He's going to miss me...but he wants me to go.He's proud that I have a future planned out for myself...

Its just so hard to leave it all behind.....